Been in the closet for soo soo many years. it started out very innocent, and has grown to become a very important and passionate part of my life. Its not about lingerie, its more about how feminine i feel when i am dressed up. I feel more at ease, rested, and less stressful. Its hard to explain, but during those special little moments, i am more happy and at peace with myself.

At this point in my life, when a look at a gorgeous women, my perspective is wanting to be her (not with her), I find my self enthralled examining her hair styles, evaluating their use of makeup, what type of manicure and pedicure they have... i enjoy relating with their sense of style on fashionable attire.. And above all their shoes are an absolute fetish.

I consider, myself straight, but when i am dressed up, i am strangely attracted to other gentlemen. I dont know how to explain it beyond that. Its very challanging balancing my normal life, with my deepest desires.

My wife would never understand, i know that, and we are still very much in love. I only want her to be happy, feel desirable, and safe. Deep down i know that i am not making her feel as desirable and satisfied as she should deserve. I have started to be drawn to learning more about cuckolding and perhaps there is a solution in there somewhere.

It seems that with each passing day, i get a little bit more daring (shopping for shoes, dresses, makeup..) It definately is exhilerating and one of my greatest passions. I have ony been out in public once dressed up. it was a most thrilling and sensual moment.

Do you know how i feel? if so i would luv to chat with you.